♂什么样の心情,我不知道♀

今天..我跑去看了W的wall..看到了一些也许自己不该看到的东西..曾经的过去,他从来未对我做过的事情...我也没有一定要他对我说...只是现在看到的..感觉很不一样...感觉他对她也许更好...感觉自己好像有点自私...仍然不想他对其他女生好...到底自己还在意什么...虽然不知道他是认真的还是开玩笑..可是却让我感觉到他的认真...只是那个女生一直在说他在和她开玩笑...在逗她似的..看到的东西..可以说是告白吧...W post了一些video在她的wall..这些事情..自己曾经希望他能给过我...可是为什么现在会有种奇怪的感觉...不再像以前那样痛...是心酸的感觉吗？我不知道...他post了“我很想爱她”那个她...他还注明了那个女生名字....“开不了口”not dare tell u （也许是告白吧） “世界唯一的你”the only you = =  “只对你说”say to u nia = =  “when i fall in love ”  过后他就post了一个status “hi” 在她的wall ..里面说些什么呢...就类是一些好像告白这样的谈话吧...里面W 完全没有一个haha ...W曾经说过..如果他没有写haha...证明说他是认真的...没有开玩笑的意思..W说的每一句话..感觉很真实...感觉很像是真的在和她告白...我搞不懂...我不知道是真还是假...也许是真的吧...只是那女生认为他在玩而已...因为过去的曾经他也像这样和她开过玩笑...到底自己现在在意什么..一切都过去了不是吗...不是放下了吗...不是没有心痛的感觉了吗...为什么还会有种说不出口的心情...是不甘心吗？还是不希望他对她好...习惯了独自占有他的好...所以不希望看到不希望面对其他的她....

♂Scary @ Weird Dream ♀

ytd nite i dream a nightmare again > < a very scary nightmare ...im sit in a car and chat with s.y's fren VANESSA = ='' y i will dreaming her i duno oso /.\ then infront have a indian teenager..unexpected！my bro sit with him on the infront place ! opps ! the teenager look like nt a kindly person...on the road..have block by police x.x when the police checked the teenager...police found a drug that hide in the teenager's bag !! the indian teenager take a knife frm a bag and abduct my bro ! i felt shocked and scary ! wat should i do ? i wanna help my bro! then the police try to gv advice to the drug users bt at last he fail ...he was killed by the drug users and b4 he die..he said " HERE HAVE A DRUG USERS! " after he saying finish ..only i wanna escape frm the car = = damn stupid me x.x bt i move slowly ..izzit every dream that when u wanna to run or escape something that is danger to u..ur action will become slowly ?! when i take my first step out frm the car ..the bad person was cut down my right hand ..and he shout to me " U RUN LA ..I SEE U HOW TO RUN LATER ! " then he cut my leg again !!  555 T^T..i fall down and lying on the floor motionless..even though my hand and leg was cut by him..bt i did not felt any hurt = =v in this moment...i notice that i lost my hand and leg ...i thinking about my future..i dnt want lost my hand and leg on my future ..bcus that is important to me..i still wanna to walk and use my hand to do everything ! i cannot lost it ! even though i lost my leg..i duno y i stil can stand after the bad indian guy was snatch by other police../.\ lol ~ i keep cry to my mum ...i say " i dnt want no hand no leg on me ! I DNT WANT ! " my mum tell me that " no choice ..u lost ur hand and leg already..even though now u stil can stand for temporary bt after u recover ..u cannot stand as a normal person again." im very disappointed and i keep cry ..i cry loudly T.T then i was awake frm the nightmare ! my hand is shaking ..and my body no energy to move ..through the dream ..i get a lesson that i should appreciate wat i get now everything and included myself  T.T i dnt want lost anything again > < it felt very scary when u lost something that u have ...i no dare the slp again ..i scare i will continue the dream again ..bt my eyes is very tired and wanna to close...bt i dnt want slp and no dare to slp again :( it so scary to me !!!!