♂Scary @ Weird Dream ♀

ytd nite i dream a nightmare again > < a very scary nightmare ...im sit in a car and chat with s.y's fren VANESSA = ='' y i will dreaming her i duno oso /.\ then infront have a indian teenager..unexpected！my bro sit with him on the infront place ! opps ! the teenager look like nt a kindly person...on the road..have block by police x.x when the police checked the teenager...police found a drug that hide in the teenager's bag !! the indian teenager take a knife frm a bag and abduct my bro ! i felt shocked and scary ! wat should i do ? i wanna help my bro! then the police try to gv advice to the drug users bt at last he fail ...he was killed by the drug users and b4 he die..he said " HERE HAVE A DRUG USERS! " after he saying finish ..only i wanna escape frm the car = = damn stupid me x.x bt i move slowly ..izzit every dream that when u wanna to run or escape something that is danger to u..ur action will become slowly ?! when i take my first step out frm the car ..the bad person was cut down my right hand ..and he shout to me " U RUN LA ..I SEE U HOW TO RUN LATER ! " then he cut my leg again !!  555 T^T..i fall down and lying on the floor motionless..even though my hand and leg was cut by him..bt i did not felt any hurt = =v in this moment...i notice that i lost my hand and leg ...i thinking about my future..i dnt want lost my hand and leg on my future ..bcus that is important to me..i still wanna to walk and use my hand to do everything ! i cannot lost it ! even though i lost my leg..i duno y i stil can stand after the bad indian guy was snatch by other police../.\ lol ~ i keep cry to my mum ...i say " i dnt want no hand no leg on me ! I DNT WANT ! " my mum tell me that " no choice ..u lost ur hand and leg already..even though now u stil can stand for temporary bt after u recover ..u cannot stand as a normal person again." im very disappointed and i keep cry ..i cry loudly T.T then i was awake frm the nightmare ! my hand is shaking ..and my body no energy to move ..through the dream ..i get a lesson that i should appreciate wat i get now everything and included myself  T.T i dnt want lost anything again > < it felt very scary when u lost something that u have ...i no dare the slp again ..i scare i will continue the dream again ..bt my eyes is very tired and wanna to close...bt i dnt want slp and no dare to slp again :( it so scary to me !!!!

♂难受♀

自己明明已经够笨了..现在连身体也差了..真是脆弱！最后终于都生病了...早上起来..肚子很不舒服...很想吐..可却吐不出...只知道如果能吐..那我会舒服很多...现在的我..全身没力...只想一直躺在床上...一动也不动的躺着...可是当我躺在床上的时候...我却觉得自己很没用..下定决心要站起来..可是却没力...走几步就好像要倒下去酱...没有办法走五分钟...甚至是两三分钟！这种感觉真的很难受...头晕晕的...没去做工...只是send了一封信息给老板的女儿..和他说一声...我连讲话的力气都没有！身体真没用啊...都不知道在晚上之前会不会好起来...我还想去上课！有一个问题一直在围绕着我...到底我该选择4月开课还是6月呢...为什么会有这样的烦恼..我也只能说我对自己没有信心...朋友们都总是说我可以的！加油..慢慢来...我也不知道自己在想什么...只知道我的目标想当个出色的accountant...而不是光读..不会利用里面的方程式...不是单靠会做！而是要懂得变通！我希望自己有一天可以变成那样...我不想现在放弃...可是感觉真的很迷惑...老是担心自己学不来...昨天坐在我旁边的两个女生我觉得他们很厉害...我不明白一些东西...因为老是讲课的时候我忘了 = = 可是他们却还记得很清楚..当她们回答我的时候...我的记忆才回来...真是没有用心上课啊！这样的我..还怎样继续读下去！昨天也上了E.B. Susan 也说我的英文很差...要多学....这我也知道啊...我很想去学啊...可是却怎样也没办法学好..自己的没用心...没有信心...甚至根本就没有下定决心！当发觉自己的差劲...真的比失恋还要难受.....真的很希望自己可以做得到...可是却不知道有没有那样的恒心.....